trouble

I am trying, really hard to come up with a small ‘zine to work on for the next little while. But it’s causing me trouble. I can’t decide what to do with it.
I have two instincts here.
The first is to do something short, sweet, cute, funny and fuzzy-animal-cartoon related. A crowd pleaser I can make in large quantities and hand out, with my web-site address on the back. Something I would enjoy myself, if I were handed that sorta thing.
The second is to do something larger darker and more artistic. More classic personal ‘zine, something fancy and personal I can stick in my portfolio.
I actually have semi-started on the second, only because it’s what came easier. At first anyway.
All this being sick and going to doctors, and tests and MRI’s and stuff is great material. It needs to go somewhere, get recorded and expounded.
But when I look at my outlines and sketches, it’s not the kind of thing I really enjoy or appreciate.
I appreciate fluff.
Hello kitty, pink, sarcasm, irony, wit, silliness, style and preferably little substance.
I’m sorta trying to combine the two, but I don’t know how it’s working.
I have a bit of an hidden inner perfectionist, that is mostly stifled, but occasionally comes out and is stifling instead.